It's Wednesday, let's write it...
People be fucking weird. Like, very, and I'm gonna be honest... Black British people... or Black Europeans as I call them (Black people born in Europe, with European passports AND the passport of their ethnicity) be.... very very very VERY weird towards American Black people.... like very... and it's something I'm encountering here in Japan.... it's WEIRD.
The comparison... the secret admiration mixed with jealousy or hate is palpable... and the best word I can use to describe it is weird. The constant Black American slang, but the overuse or doing of it when you see me in person.... weird. Assuming I am confident simply and strictly because I'm an American... weird. I could go into these experiences except... I don't really want to waste your or my time doing so lol.
Anywho... it's week 11 here in Japan for me. Almost the 3rd month of me living in Tokyo. I've learned much, I'll put it into 11 bullet points and then I'll leave you to basting those turkeys, holiday travel, and spending time with loved ones... Thanksgiving isn't celebrated here in the East, so it's business as usual... womp womp.
I prefer quieter, more rural Japan.. Kyoto to be frank than to Tokyo... it's.... a lot, to say the least.
Food is good, however quite high in sodium, some things super processed, and not many fresh vegetable options available out. hmph.
Air quality in Tokyo, bogus... pretty polluted air, mixed with hella people... my skin is struggle bussin.
Dealing with acne is a struggle for me, I have really radiant, sensitive, clear skin.. so... this is a lot for me, and figuring it out is.... testing my faith and daily regimen in terms of cooking daily and my mental knowing that I'm doing enough... it's the environment.
I'm singing my ass of here which is super exciting. It's super cheap to rent a studio here, I'll be doing so soon. The time's I've been it's been on someone else's dime.
Finally immersing myself into the dance culture here. It is HEAVILY reliant on Black American culture, as our culture dominates world culture... concerned with all the Asian and White bodies living it out and seeing so few Black ones.. it wears on the mind.
Seeing so few Black people, wears on the mind. And the Black people in my program are French or from New Zealand... and..... yeah..... I already talked about the Black European... and I'll extend the same to New Zealand for the time being.
I'm so fucking happy I'm in the last year of my twenties. Seeing people just starting their 20s I'm like awww, best of luck. But I have no desire to rub elbows because I'm not there and happy to be.
I am fashion girl on down! People stop and stare when I'm in the street daily... doing my best to smile and continue to walk on.. sometimes I don't necessarily want to be ogled at... especially without getting paid (via sponsorship, modeling, or because I'm on display in like... an art museum or on stage lol)
December is on Sunday, the year is really concluding, and although its been a tough ass one in every sector of my life, it's also been fucking phenomenal, affirming, and righteous in a lot of ways... not choosing to weigh either option higher, thank God for it all and all the in betweens.
God's got BIG plans for mama in 2025, and I rest and trust in this knowledge. Right now only me God and my closest family know... truly doing my best to be unconcerned with when the rest of you will learn. I encourage you to return this energy in-kind, you deserve.
Okay, that's all for today. Oh! I also got a big scholarship this month, yayay! More on that later. Wishing you the happiest holidays and hope you find some time to wind down in Winter... I'm feeling eerily in tune with the upcoming Winter Solstice... and for the first time in my life I'm excited that 'Winter is Coming'.
Amen and ase! With all of my love (even for the weirdos from afar), until next time,
Mrs. Jasmin Dominique Taylor
PS I'm totally floating in love with Tevin again, and boy oh boy after the year(s) we had... this is a way I know that anything is possible in life. Things are still different with the distance, but in the words of Sha'Carri, we're not back.. we're better ;) Love you papa-- let's keep keeping on.
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