it's Wednesday, let's write it.
I'm tired! I'm so fulfilled in all of my artistic pursuits, and the tides are changing and have changed.. and I'm tired.
I think that's something 'they'– oldheads– don't tell you. Or maybe they do, but you think they're bullshitting. I honestly don't have it in me to get super in depth, because it's 4:50PM and I'm not done working, so I'll say this:
Keep putting one foot in front of the other.
I need an assistant, I'm in dire need– pls help.
this type of tired that I am, is a good type of tired. I'm tired from fulfilling my commitments and vows to God– what an honor.
I'm tired from creating and honoring trust.
I'm tired from putting my whole self into listening, loving, and learning.
So– I'll take it.
I'm tired from leaning in, not against or away. I'm tired because becoming takes work, hard work, and I am, becoming.
I'll leave you with this– a scripture that came to me in the moments before I was fully awake the other day, that's been near and dear to my heart as I continue to commit to my becoming, and stay in position– 1 Peter 4:12-19.. and mama's gone give you the New King James Version, cuz it's that critical.
Suffering for God’s Glory
12 Beloved, do not think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened to you; 13 but rejoice to the extent that you partake of Christ’s sufferings, that when His glory is revealed, you may also be glad with exceeding joy. 14 If you are [a]reproached for the name of Christ, blessed are you, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests upon you. On their part He is blasphemed, but on your part He is glorified. 15 But let none of you suffer as a murderer, a thief, an evildoer, or as a [c]busybody in other people’s matters. 16 Yet if anyone suffers as a Christian, let him not be ashamed, but let him glorify God in this matter.
17 For the time has come for judgment to begin at the house of God; and if it begins with us first, what will be the end of those who do not obey the gospel of God? 18 Now
“If the righteous one is scarcely saved, Where will the ungodly and the sinner appear?”
19 Therefore let those who suffer according to the will of God commit their souls to Him in doing good, as to a faithful Creator.
So, I won't think it's strange that mama's tired. I won't get weary in my well-doing. I won't let my feelings cloud the fact that I'm exactly where I need to be, and that life is on my side. I will continue to trust in my, our, faithful Creator. With that said, like A$AP Rocky says– my pistol go: bang bang boom boom pop pop. It me, I'm the pistol–Firing off left and right for the Kingdom, with a smile on my face –cuz I'm cute like that.
Amen and Ase.
Keep firing babes, bombs away. And don't be ashamed if you suffering, uncomfortable, or just plain ol tied in the things you've prayed for that God has called you to to advance the Kingdom. I heard today from one of my faves: "Co-creation is the highest form of Creation." Let Him use you. In the words of my grandfather– don't take no wooden nickels. More on that one later, lol.
With all of my love, until next time
Mrs. Jasmin Dominique Taylor