Moment by moment...
It's Wednesday, let's write it.
Now I know last week I was talking all about courage and us in the face of pain and grief, and that's all fine and dandy.. with that, today I'm pissed off. So I'm finna frame that as the courage to take it out on the page, and share it with y'all versus cursing mfs out in person... or just, being genuinely pulled out of my integrity.
Today's write is a SFD, for those of you that don't know, Brene Brown has coined the term as: Shitty First Draft. These my first thoughts, as they are, and some of em might be shitty cuz I ain't sifted through, and that's not the purpose of today's write okay? Amen and Ase.
Damn-- does anyone else feel like it's getting darker before the motherfucking dawn of summer? MFs ain't got my money on time. mfs ain't got my contracts on time, mfs want more of my time, my man been getting on my damn nerves, I'm ready for fucking summer, the month has come and gone, my credit card bill not on zero, my taxes fucking late, we need a new bed, Munching donations was low, Gas $6 damn near, I need a new assistant, I'm tired of finding out consistently that people are cool not reaching their fullest potential, I'm also kind of tired of meeting mfs that vulnerability, whole-heartedness, healing, forgiveness, and dealing with their shit is NO WHERE on their agenda list but they wanna train to be the next doctors, lawyers, business owners, parents... I just.... am fed up with fucking earth today.....
Which means my overflow is damn near already here, and ANY DAY now, God is just gone open up the gates and reveal to me all this Glorrryyy and reveal me to the world in it. And again, that's great, I'm not leaning on my own understanding, I'm grounded in the confidence of trusting the Lord with all of my heart, and acknowledging in all of my ways... and like... it's tough.
Cuz within that you have to stay disciplined... I am.. in my practices, in my prayer, in my thoughts.... it seem like every day shit is coming for me doe.... but in order to be an overcomer, you have to have shit to overcome.
SO..... if you're going through it, know you not alone, we courageous and strong, and today the vibe at this current moment is a little pissed off.. thanks for letting me revel in it, so that I may now let it go, and go get my namaste on. Don't let ANY one thing control your day.. ONE THING? Unless your whole ass self celebrating, always remember there are many moving parts.
Sending love, money, hustle and fucking flow in this bitch CUZ I'M READY FOR MY MILLION, MY 100 ACRES AND SUMMER DAMNIT. AND FOR PEOPLE THAT'S NOT WHAT I'M ON TO LEAVE ME ALONE DAMNIT.
Lemme go listen to my new favorite song, WizKid's 'Steady' and it takes a lot for me to have a favorite anything so... amen and ase.
Wishing you all of my love, and the opportunity to live in a moment, and then let it go. Until next time,
Mrs. Jasmin Dominique Taylor
